Saturday, February 03, 2007

Losing People (to the friends I thought I had, especially one)

I never thought that I could let myself lose friends easily. I hold onto every memory. Every conversation, argument and giggles and tears.

I cant let go easily because I thought that person cared too. Its tough. But I cant compromise on the truth, my self-respect, their stupidity and immaturity and my principles.

When time passes by us during a fight and moments of harsh venom filled words are exchanged, time really stands still. At that point u want to tell yourself that this isn’t real and tomorrow she’ll call u again and laugh about this. But the truth is she wont. Nor will I.

Since the past 3 years I’ve lost ‘’friends’’ who I was close to. Girls who shared my secrets and I shared theirs. It takes years to build love and respect. How can a few misunderstandings and fights erase everything. But the fact is, it does.

Those close to me have comforted me and some of their words made a lot of sense –

“People come into our lives for a particular time. When they leave its their time to leave. No matter what u do, u can never bring them back. No matter how hard u try.”

“Those who don’t stick by you, are just not worth it.”

I was listening to Nelly Furtado’s ‘why do all good things come to an end?’ and felt sad for a while. But then I realised something today in the shower. Where I felt the water trickling through me… around me , over me, healing me.. and like most of us, I felt comfort there.

I realised that if it really was a good thing… it would never end. Never…


10 comments:

Anonymous said...

I just read ur blog, I really dunno what to say, all i can tell u is that u write amazingly, and whoever gave u that advice is really smart. he he,if its in ur fate to get back with that person u lost, u will. time will tell.

Babushka said...

hmmm, that's one way of looking at it...
i've heard another version... good things end for better to come.
or better things came to replace the good... whichever is applicable.

Michelle said...

i SO know what ur talking about...u have no idea how similar our thoughts are! im feeling the same thing right now just hang in thr...it always hurts wen u care...u gotta learn to stop caring so much cuz they dont...n stop trusting so much almost all my frnds betrayed my trust last year...hang in thr...

the_ego_has_landed said...

~anon- thanks :) heheh yeah time will...

~babs- "better things came to replace the good..."

i agree...

~michelle- thanks girl!! :)
"it always hurts wen u care...u gotta learn to stop caring so much cuz they dont..."- true.. but its tough

Im glad u agree.. heheh I agree with alot of ur posts as well :) heheh

Keshi said...

First of all, I wanna tell u how very proud Im of all the charity work u do at that young age. Keep it up Ego!

Friends? Who r they? I just lost one last week. She just stopped talking to me cos I cancelled dina at the last moment. So what? Big deal. Shit happens. If she cant take that, well I aint gonna beg for her friendship either. F**K friendship.




Keshi.

Ubiquitous said...

Hey Ro, cheer up!!

Though I haven't really been in this situation, I can imagine how it must feel to lose a dear friend.

Hope you can patch up sometime in future, but if things can't get any better, just let them be. :)

And smile now!!

*hugs*

the_ego_has_landed said...

~Keshi- "Shit happens. If she cant take that, well I aint gonna beg for her friendship either. F**K friendship."

thanks.. that makes alot of sense :) ur right!

I love helping ppl.. It makes me feel better and useful :)

the_ego_has_landed said...

~reyn- hey.. thanks alot :) tho Its not that bad now..

"but if things can't get any better, just let them be. :)"

---yeah ur right!
hope u never in my place.. lol.. its not good trust me

Łóòň Ġãĺ said...

Why exactly did u NOT publish my comment? :O

Semele said...

Good words.