Tagged!

Ok here goes the tag that Equilibrium passed on to me!

1. Family- Secret Garden : This post was written when I was bugged that I had to hide my relationship with my boyfriend from my parents, unlike his! lol Well its been one and half years with him, and still its not so openly talked about and even though they know im not really 'reading' in my room at 10pm but on the phone with him, we all act like he's a good 'friend' hahaha



2. Friends- This post is purely on friendships and the person who I thought I had lost, is back in my life yay! she's too close to go...



3. Me - Well this blog is about me lol..but this one is how goofy I can be!



4. Love - Lol I think there are quite a few on this one.. hehehe here is one of my favourites.


5. Reading Minds - Hmm... this is tough. I dont think I've attempted reading minds, but I have analyzed behaviour!

Those who have time and creative juices arent flowing, pls do the tag :)

Decisions

There are times in your life when you have to look objectively at situations, even if its very very personal. Times when there is no right or wrong, but just action. Like the famous quote by Lord Krishna, “Action is its own fruit.” When you cant get caught up in emotions and relations…..to accomplish the selfish goal.

The past week has been crazy mentally and emotionally for me, due to decisions on personal goals. I’m probably still not out of them yet, and in some sense, will never be. But the whole stress and nightmarish sleep and wondering which fits well in my life, in my future, trying to predict the future, trying to analyse my strengths and weaknesses, trying not to show my weaknesses to people…. God! Its one thing after another…

So then I asked myself, if I’m ready for a change. Which is more important,in terms of my career, now or the future? Its like an investment. We never think of buying and selling property in a few months, unless you have several ;) We invest to get returns over a long period. And that’s what I thought,let me focus on later, not on now.

This rationale comes only later though… your first instinct is the one I believe in. You know the feeling in your stomach, the gut feeling, when you just know this thing is really bad for you, or really good for you. Its also the vibe you get from the new people and new place/ environment you enter… It really counts for me and the decisions I’ve made so far on that feeling have turned out to be just perfect and gorgeous!! :)

I feel content. Even if there are hiccups on the way, I’m pretty sure, this is going to be good for me in the long run.

No one is to blame. Its my decision and when my heart and head agree, no regrets :)

And then came the rain....

Expression in any form is beautiful, individual and unique. How we express ourselves, our energies, our laughter, our love, our fears, our desires ...... differs from one person to another.

There are times when I get frustrated with people who dont express what they feel, why they feel it, or when... they just cant, or they get it all wrong... and sparks fly and I get annoyed. Then there are those who hate confrontations and I cant take that! I mean if your not wrong, why fear? And if you aren't right, why fear again? Why not face it, and move on?? These things are common. I've been through my bad days too and confessing isnt easy always! Its tough. But at least I can sleep well at night, once its done.

Well the reason I started writing today, is cause off late I have been missing my passion. My outlets. And today I could express. I could be myself and I was appreciated.
I danced :)

In between all this maddness and compulsions, I hope I can perform again. I really miss it.. and it fell like it was raining on me and I smiled through the water drops.
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This is how I had started my day, till things went awry. I wont let anyone's opinions or judgements touch this place. Conventions and rubbish. So unfair. Just coz Im a woman.
Im publishing this cause I believe in finishing things once you start it. Esp when I wrote this all
smiling :)