Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Sometime back I used to wonder what is it like to be content?

We can never be content. We can never be satisfied. But I feel the satiated state can be achieved by a little self-analysis and self-observation.

What are we constantly chasing?

Who are we constantly pleasing?

Well I cant not chase or please… its natural… but I think happiness begins when we start accepting our failures, our stupidity, our shortcomings.

I cant say I’m content. But yeah…Im happy with the way things are… for now…

I know what it feels like to love and be loved.

My family is intrusive but caring lol and

I’m slowly realizing the value and non-value of friendships.

Sometimes I frown and wonder… what!? No worry? Why??!!!

Like in Roald Dahl’s book “ The problem is, there is no problem.”

Heheh.. Im really like that… so I’ve learnt to take things slowly and as they come. Enjoy the sad and bad moments. Cherish the giggles and silly conversations. And live in the good ones :)

Being content and satisfied may last only a day or two or maybe more…I guess it really depends on you…

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Tasting freedom

I’m sooooo haaappppyyyy exams over!!!!! Yeh!! Finally

For the past 2 weeks, I’d really forgotten what it was like to be free, relaxed, chill, etc…and the other synonyms for “no tension” which I felt the whole semester. Hehehe..

But its true… after u’ve lost sleep, put in last minute sweat and walked around like a zombie… U deserve a break… and so now its settling in.. slowly..the taste of freedom!

Aaahh… gently… slowly.. creeping up my legs… my waist…my hands… my face.. relaxed…… and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

…..wanna sleep ;)

Saturday, December 02, 2006

This time Its Really different!!!

Dedicated to AK

So close to you. I bare it all open.

The wounds, the scars, the flaws,
the love, the peace-- all open to you
and you'll still care and
accept me for who I am.

'shameless' with you.
impulsive and wild.

I don't have to impress you.
That's why I don't lie to you
I don't need to.
You'll always be by my side.

That's what makes us special,
& I mean it when I say, "This time its really different."

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

letting loose...

Gosh!! its been ages since I blogged... feeling pretty bad about it. Dunno what to post, when to post... etc... feeling bad cause havent visited other blogs and my old blog pals... sigh.. hope they're still around.. will try visiting soon!

I've been so stumped with work, college, and 'socialising'

Just thought I'll write an 'unmeaningful' post for a change cause I just wanna!!

Just wanna let looseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

Friday, September 22, 2006


I was doing a psychology project on 'personality' and went through many pics..masks... here are a few.. i love them.. fascinated :)

Thursday, September 07, 2006

What Superhero are u?

You Are Elektra
There's really no superhero with more style than you.Because who could beat being sexy assasin ninja?
What Superhero Are You?


I don’t understand why people lie. I don’t understand the need to lie.

I mean I’m trying to understand and I have come to a few conclusions, but still there’s just one word that rings in my head- WHY??

Why lie? Most people lie because of insecurity issues. And this is usually termed as ‘issues’ by friends and peers. No one knows what this vague issue is.
“yeah he’s got issues…”What issues? Why does he have issues? So then I analysed a friend of mine. He constantly lies. Its an open joke. We all know he fibs, and he laughs it off. But I keep telling him its not funny. It’s a serious problem. A major flaw in his personality. He gets kicks out of lying and fooling around with me when he sees how shocked and irritated I get when I see the truth.

Its not just him. I know a lot of guys who lie. I know girls too. In fact I never know whose telling the truth Its seriously a problem!

People lie when they cheat on their boyfriends/girlfriends. Now that’s wrong but logical.
But why lie to friends? Lies to show off – insecurity. Lies to cover up- insecurity. Lies cause your ashamed of yourself- insecurity.
I hate it. Why cant people accept themselves for who they are and what they’re made of?

LOVE YOURSELF!!! Be who you are!

There have been times when I have lied too. White lies …like lie to a friend who I wanna avoid and say I’m going out with my or stiff like that.

I’ve had insecurity issues as well.When they were big, I solved it and tried hard to love myself again. But I didn’t lie. Not once did I let my self-respect go.
I have minor issues now too.

Like I have an ego problem. I do.. with the smallest things. Just today I experienced it. In fact 2 days in a row, over money problems with the auto driver. And I told myself let go. I was seething with rage. Yestreday I yelled. Because he was at fault. Today I didn’t because none of us were at fault but he was being really nasty and rude and seemed like he wanted to fight.
I cant take any kind of silly dominance and all that bullshit. The auto drivers arent always that bad. But these two!! Im getting angry thinking of them

Anyway… that’s my story.. and I really hope people will stop lying to one another. See when people meet me. They meet the real me. The person I am. I take time to open up. But I don’t have layers. I trust people. That’s a problem.
But I dunno any other way.

I really don’t.

I wish I could make everyone see how life would be easier if they stopped lying and started trusting one another. Started being professional in their careers. Started looking at things objectively when needed. Sigh…I only hope you guys got my message at least! Im not trying to say stop lying.But don’t do it unnecessarily. Its really not cool.Its Immature and stupid.

Thursday, August 24, 2006


Where am I headed?
It's like I dont care ,but still I do.
I want to. But then again...what do I really want?
Who do I really need?

I talk to people.
People talk to me.
What do we need?
What do we want?

Everything is so ...blah...


How do I define happiness?
Are they fleeting moments that one has
to catch...
Before they pass you by....

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Didnt wanna leave kerala :(

Recently I went to Kovalam (kerala) with my mom,dad, and sis... a short 3 day trip.
We stayed at Taj Green Cove Resort. A sexy place...check it out (when financially comfortable;p)
I loved it. we were so pampered...well its the Taj. They have a private beach. Tho we discovered the Leela Hotel -next door neighbour - was on a cliff right on the sea. Beautiful..wanna go back there someday. lOl

I've been waiting to get away...anywhere...n finally it was kerala. Our desination. Yep...God's own country.

I wish i could take pics in the plane cause when the plane tilted to kind of dive in, the sky and sea merged and suddenly it was all blue. I was like..shit where r we?? n then saw the coconut trees...and the excitement began!!:)

No cell phone!! no vibrations in my jeans pocket and no one calling me! YEH! it was bliss..tho i missed my frens n wished they were there with me to share my joy :)
p.s. messged once from mom's phone..tee hee...but still! i felt so free!

I've taken such a long break from blogging....but i always took pics...n post this pic...tho i cant put up all the pics ( about 100- happens with a dig cam hehheh;typical tourist i here r a fw of my fav.

The famous backwaters of kerala! It was one pleasant evening boatride...but it was enough to last an impression in our minds. Im crazy about beautiful skies..fascinates me..

At the private beach...on the hammock...thats me:) oh man...i dint wanna leave :( that's the lagoon behind me.

the cool breeze and sea water spraying mildly on my cheeks... ah...almost paradise. almost,cause i may discover a better the future;p

backwaters Posted by Picasa again....

I was so impressed with the ROADS in Tiruvanthapuram! man..they were so smooth... we kept comparing need to say more...

The city wasn't stagnated with traffic jams, cabs had awesome stereo systems :), roads were like highways or laid the previous day, people were proud of their culture -showed when we mixed around and visited the museum.

You can sleep on the floors of the airport or relax on their huge black leather sofas.

Then when i reached Bangalore...I really wanted to cry!!! This is my hometown n i love it. But it has deteriorated so much!!!I think it starts with the ppl. Prob is no one co-operates here.

Hm...maybe kerala's secret is its high literacy rate :) whatver it is..i wanna go back there soon!!

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

2 souls meet

Is her soul half or full
Is his half or full

2,but feel like 1
or is it unreal
or is it real


2 souls in search for

Thirtst or hunger
It doesnt matter.

2 souls together

Can they become one
Should they become one

Monday, April 24, 2006


CHEESE:) Posted by Picasa

Me happy I think…
I dunno…it happens when u love ur pals and spend a full day with them…buying time and extending it hoping it never ends…without work,studies or boys lol.

*People who know me, know that I’m smiling most of the time. (sometimes just duh!) hehe
So this aint a post about my smile or why I’m smiling so broadly(that pic is with one o my close fren babs..and maybe that’s why I’m so happy..hehe but sorry had to crop it:p)
Actually dunno y im posting this..but sometimes u just want to write!*

So…..on Saturday I went out with my girls!!!!!!!!My best frens Spu and Nivi:):):):)

For ICE AGE2!-damn cute…no complains
And lunch at KFC and then ice cream..well I was the only one who ate lol.Corner House rockz…if anyone has access to CH get their dark chocolate and walnut scoop for 25 bucks…awesome eh?
Then Barista…where both of em drank flavoured that’s how they make their drinks…frozzzzen!ahem…where a funny thing happened…
I was really thirsty and took out the mountain dew bottle from spu’s bag admist our chatter about how annoying boys can be…
When an instant later my mouth is half open and still dry and I’m staring at an orange and black clad waiter who says “I’m sorry maam but your displaying the wrong brand at the right place.”
I’m sorry wha??
So I’m still staring…confused and spu’s blank and nivi is grinning I think.
I thought display…u know like my pants were low or something…and almost gulped cause these were low :p
And he says “even kinley isn’t allowed…” And spu goes “its water…”
“Yes maam but my manager just told me to tell you…”
I was still thirsty “ Um…can I just have a quick sip?!”
“yes..just hurry.”

JEEZ! And after that 3 of us couldn’t stop laughing…like giggling immature kids…
Dunno why..we kept replaying the whole scene! Like how 3 of us were I thought he was talking about my pants and how spu tried to cover up with “its water!!”
Hahahha… uncontrollable laughter that can happen only when 3 gals(or more)…get together…lol…and esp 3 cute gals;) hehe

Oh there’s more to the day…our silly antics(like how my car got stuck and the cop kept yelling and abusing in Kannada..and how I hadn’t carried my license and nivi was shit scared and spu was abusing back…but luckily didn’t get caught….and how we all tried out one sexy top at )
but this one “moment” was too funny..and thinking about it still makes me smile like the

Monday, April 17, 2006

Racing mind...........
calm exterior,
open skies.

open road.

Indescribable hollow.


I posted! to all my blog frens out there...thanks for keeping a check on me:) heheh..I'm good..and I dont feel as this poem..tho...I had written it a few days back..right now I'm all smiles:)

Sunday, April 09, 2006

25 questions…I answered cause …well…nothing good on tv:p

After a loonggggg Break...I'm back with a TAG!!!;p

I was tagged by

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.

“…past half year,I’m not sure how they’d act. Anyway I can get my cellphone.They know the number.Maybe they called

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.

Hm...I touch the calender on the soft

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

Some kids show on toon disney channel..with sis;p

4.Without looking, guess what time it is?

around 6 pm

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?

lol..its 5 mins to 6...

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

amazing...I just heard a bird! and the constant hum..of the fan

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

This afternoon..went out with dad.Thank god I took his camera...he went on a site i was clicking weird pics;p

8.Before you started this survey, what did you look at?

eh? my mail??

9. What are you wearing?

A T shirt and shorts

10. Did you dream last night?

Nope! yeh!! hate it when i dunno what they

11. When did you last laugh? the afternoon ..while watching clue why..don remember... hahahah

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

There's cream colour paint on all the walls..and a big golden clock and a photoframe of the fall season in Canada:)

13. Seen anything weird lately?

Hm…no…oh but last week at my fren’s party somebody had a got computer mouse….which when clicked…u get a bloody shock till ur elbow…hahah

14. What do u think of this quiz?

Ahem quiz? Lol…which part o my brain is testing again?!
Doesn matter…I’m jobless.and it’s a Sunday.

15.What is the Last film u saw?

Sexy,awesome,brilliant,intense,gripping movie…

We have so little time…that people seem to be just crashing into each others lives.

16. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?

Sheesh… hm…shop till I drop?! (well it was a cliché q. too)

17. Tell me something about you that I dunno.

I have a nose ring:)

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

Kill everyone without being a primary suspect! Heheh…this world sucks! We might as well be in heaven!

19. Do you like to dance?

Like Eminem raps…I dance;p

20. George Bush

Hm…fits the monkey jokes. He’s over and done with…nothing’s gonna happen by making fun of him or bitching about him…people should act. (pssttt AK 47…whose in?)

Note: I;m not as hostile as I sound…in fact I’m in a crazy mood! Hehhe…

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

I’ve never bothered about all this crap…will go for an ancient(Sanskrit or Greek) meaningful name.When the time comes..will look it up…

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

Ref. previous ans;p

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?

Oh yeah! But dunno how long…

24.What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?

You’re loved ones are on their way (in case I go first)
You’re loved ones have been waiting (in case I go last)

Lol..cant live anywhere..without em

25. People who may do this memo in their journal.


Wednesday, March 22, 2006

7 songs I shake booty too..well i try;p

I was tagged by MICHELLE:)

the tag is - 7 soings u r into right now

Well I dunno if I’m really into these songs right now…cause they’re on and off..u know.. I’ll go in order of preference, i.e. the once I groove to more these days! Lookin fwd to read ur posts on this interesting tag…

~~Everytime we touch(radio mix) by Cascada

(chorus) 'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling And every time we kiss, I swear I can fly Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last, Need you by my side 'Cause every time we touch, I feel the static, And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky, Can't you hear my heart beat slow, I can't let you go, I Want you in my life.

The lyrics aint as good as da’s a dance no!shake booty types

~~Sorry- Madonna

”I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna knowPlease don't say you're sorryI've heard it all beforeAnd I can take care of myselfI don't wanna hear, I don't wanna knowPlease don't say 'forgive me'I've seen it all beforeAnd I can't take it anymore”

hahah…she makes sense:)

~~ Fix u- Coldplay
When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse When the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse?

~~ My illusion- Benni Benassi

Lyrics are…but cool beats…and like to listen to it when Im drivin…:D

~~Beep and Don’t ya – Pussy cat dolls;)

“I know u like me, I know u do. That’s why when I come around she’s all over you……………..

Etc.. Baby don’t u wish ur girlfriend was hot like me…”

~~When I’m gone- Eminem

“And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mournRejoice every time you hear the sound of my voiceJust know that I'm looking down on you smilingAnd I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no painJust smile backAnd when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mournRejoice every time you hear the sound of my voiceJust know that I'm looking down on you smilingAnd I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no painJust smile back...”

it’s a song I was addicted to a while for 3

~~Lift ur leg up- Zoukey
Again a dance no…sad I couldn’t find the lyrics…but its something like

“come sexy girl, feel me, understand me sexy girl.
Lift ur leg up…common lift ur leg up”.

Lol..the beats and music rock…hehe

I was just rereading my list. N I must admit it aint the only kind of music I listen to..but I;ve been honest n put up no.s I’ve been listenin to..
Fast music gets me going…and sad and slow songs are favs too…but off late I don’t have the time to get into that “mood”. LOL;)
I need energy…pump it!!!!:) :P

I tag everyone reading this…and especially these ppl!! Wanna read do it!!:p


Rebel on loose
Caffeine Addict

Wednesday, March 15, 2006


me with blue cheeks! and my fren shradha:) Posted by Picasa

Got this off the net..for those interested in the festival!

Bhakt Prahlad & Holika

There was a mighty demon king named Hirnakashyipu who had won all the three worlds of heaven, earth and hell and had thus, become very proud. He assumed that he could defeat even Lord Vishnu with his valor. He went to the extent that he had enforced a law that everybody would worship him instead of gods and deities. However, his little son Prahlad refused to accept his commands and continued to worship Lord Vishnu with complete devotion. Infuriated by this defiance of his son, he ordered his soldiers to throw him down a hill. Praying fervently and having full faith in Lord Vishnu, Prahlad did not retract from his word. True to his faith, Lord Vishnu rescued him at the last moment.Flustered by this news, Hirnakashyipu invoked the help of his sister Holika, who had a boon that she could walk through the fire unharmed to do away with his son. The wicked aunt agreed to the evil desires of his brother and entered the fire with her nephew Prahlad. However, the brother and sister had forgot that Holika could only enter the fire alone or she would perish. Thus, blessed by Lord Vishnu, the child Prahlad remained unharmed but Holika got burnt and died instantly. Holi is thus celebrated to commemorate the death of the evil aunt, after whom the festival is named, and the new life granted to Prahlad for his devotion and faith.

To this day, cow dung is hurled into the fire and obscenities are shouted at the Holi fire at some places to insult Holika.


that's me sitting at the bottom:) Posted by Picasa

With my classmates...we had a blast today!!:)

Saturday, March 11, 2006


Today I had an ok day! well not that bad at first!

I had my ‘computer fundamental’(yes they typed it in the singular form) paper and I’m passing!!!:) yeh!! Cause I studied for like one and a half hours only…even that was with low concentration.

I wore my baby pink corduroy pants!:) was full khush with all the compliments I was getting ….cause been dying to get them for a long time…
Well anyway so my exam went pretty good considering I was busy reading my novel last night lol and I was in hot pants;) *good mood*

*BAD MOOD begins*

Hm…after that I think the frustration started creeping in…actually it had been there since morning, but I ignored it! Lol I said “concentrate at least in the exam hall!”
I listened to me.

The frustration was the fact that my privacy has been invaded. Some fucking losers out there have been messaging me (sms-cell phone) saying Hi..wanna be frens?
Like yeah right! What the fuck?
I was gonna abuse when I stopped and stared at my name displayed in this ‘guy’s’ messg.
Then another no. messages me saying it’s the same guy.

They know my name, have my cell no. and know my b’day!

“I heard we share the same bday and thought we could be frens. You’re bday is on… and I heard you’re a sweet gal…” blah!

I was boiling!! I was out with a fren and he kept telling me to calm down.
I’m not mad at these ‘boys’ but irritated with the person circulating info about me!

So I call one o these no.s and ask him if he could o so kindly tell me about this fren who knows me. He mentions some girl’s name who I’ve never heard of in my entire life!!

I was speechless. I’m kind of cooling down now…becoz writing helps…but I swear she is a fucking lunatic! I wonder how she’d feel she was in my place?

I mean I dunno how she heard about me and got my no. and bday date etc…but keep it to urself!Jobless creature..get a life!!
I don need ur extra service of providing ‘boy frens’!!

I told this guy I’ll talk to her..just give me the no…and I was waiting to blast the daylights outta her.
Mistake-Messing with a woman’s wrath. LOL
He said he’s “busy”! wat crap…let him go tho

Unfortunately/fortunately he hasn’t yet called and Im not gonna bother anymore..
But it makes me feel so shaken with anger and frustration. Sometimes u want to maintain a low profile. I guess ppl like me cant manage that. But I didn’t ask for shit like this.

Seriously what’s up these jobless ppl!

I maybe overreacting but I don’t care. Why the fuck should ppl invade privacy!?

Fucking losers!

Whew…heheh…most of the steam is out! (I think)

Wednesday, March 08, 2006


I don’t get it.

Why have a separate day for women? Why the hype to have an ‘ego-booster’ day. Its pathetic! Are women a minority? They are the female ‘human being’. So why is there no Man’s Day? Mind u I’m not being a feminist about this…just logical and practical. I don’t think there should be any such DAY!for any sex!
Its like we need recognition for being born this way. Y? We don’t! its silly lol…really silly.
Today is just an excuse for companies,radio stations,websites,restaurants and pubs etc to launch discounts or special offers for women and in the process publicize themselves.

For instance radiocity is having a special on this and inviting women to come into the studios from 9-9 and chat with them. That’s ok…but they gave a no. to message in our comments etc. So I did..I said it’s an ego-booster. But my message wasn’t read out nor did I get a call. Now why did that happen? Because they don’t want any negative remarks. But there are two sides to a story and they could’ve had a debate on it, which would’ve been fair.

This post is to make people think. Why do we need such days…celebrate it as an excuse but don’t get sucked into it. Like one girl said on air “why do people messg me happy women’s day on my phone?I mean why cant they call me up so that I can feel more special!”(laughs)
See? That’s my point…is she stupid or just talking crap cause she’s on
Why do women need this ‘special’ feeling by being celebrated cause she’s a woman on one day of the year!?

I still don’t get it.

Friday, March 03, 2006


I wanted to put up the song itself...but couldnt figure it out..and dont have much if u like the the song! its called SUNSCREEN by Baz Luhrmann

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99 If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.

But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.


Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.


Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.

Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own..

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.
Don’t expect anyone else to support you.

Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it.
Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

Saturday, February 18, 2006


I know it’s a vague and weird topic to write about, thus I do feel challenged. But I wanted to write about this with the aim of expressing and knowing what people think of this. Everytime I ask someone…so what’s your definition of stupidity, they say “HUH??”
“Excuse me?”etc, and other connotations of surprise.

Well I find that we easily tag an action or person as STUPID. What is studpidity? Why are we so judgemental? Its natural I agree. I use the word ‘stupid’ really easily. But then it struck me, that its not fair to label someone stupid without reason. For eg if someone called u stupid, u may not take to it very kindly. Cause even tho words like stupid, dumb etc aren’t “abusive” ,they are effective.

Now there is no point of writing on stupidity. So then why am I writing this??!!! Probably cause I just want to people to realize that we need to be sensitive to such words and use it discretely..even mentally.

I think there are two ways to look at a situation. The other day a classmate was explaining something in an incomprehensive manner. So I asked her to repeat it and she said “eh..your’e just stupid” I said “what??” I shook my head cause I didn’t want to say..your doing communicative eng but cant communicate!!! That;s rude..and then I’ll become her. I was angry but didn’t want to fight. But my sudden silence made her realize that that statement wont be forgotten and that I’ve lost my respect for her. I could’ve started an argument..but I found it amusing:) lol…she’s being stupid..not me.

When Julia Roberts came on the Oprah Winfrey Show, she said, there’s one thing I hate. I hate stupid people. I was laughing when she said this…but its true. We hate stupidity…because …well>? I dunno..we just do!

I think we rate a situation or a person as stupid by our own stupidity. What we feel is stupid and if another doesn’t agree..well then they’re stupid. Our judgements and wavelengths differ from people. And when people don’t get us, we brand them as stupid.

Today a friend of mine was put in a stituation which she didn’t explore enough. Thus lost out. I said to myself..that gal is so stupid!! This is cause I would’ve explored..and so I’m judging her by my standards.
Its unfair..but I’ll still think she behaved in a stupid manner.
So I’m working within me to control these ‘stupid’ labels and be more I said before..even I dunno the point of this post..just expressed my feelings..and want to know yours..confused myself LOL!!

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

"When we meet someone and fall in love,
we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side.
I saw this happen today as the sun went down.
And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left!

No herons, no distant music, not even the tast of his lips.

How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes
before, to vanish so quickly.

Life moves very fast. It rushes us from heaven to hell in a matter
of seconds."

-'Eleven Minutes' by Paulo Coelho

Saturday, February 11, 2006

To My Best Friend Spu!!

I can still see us arguing and fighting.
I can taste those birthday cakes.
I can still hear your dog barking at me.
Gone are those days.

Funny…they’re still with me.

In the hardest places you found me.
I resisted pain. You were my shield.

I broke. You waited.
When our places reversed, I did the same.

Through our weaknesses and shortcomings.
Through our fears and silliness.
We passed.
Passed with flying colours.

A path of laughter and tears.
Nurtured for 14 years.

My strength and courage faltered,
but u stood strong and tall.
But surprise gripped me when u needed
me most of all.


I guess we complement each other.
Its brought us so far together.

Emotions and words get mixed up.
When I try to write about us.

But hey! This path of laughter and tears,
has been nurtured for 14 years.

I guess nothing else matters.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

8 points for thee man!;)

I was tagged by Ramses, Squirm and alive_n_confused !!


1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.
2. Need to mention the sex of the target.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their comments saying they’ve been tagged.
4. If tagged the 2nd time, there’s no need to post again.

Hm….maybe this is for my much ‘commented’ about “sexy stranger’’..
Well here goes..will be cliché but hey I’m tired....and tomo is some ‘virus-hitting-beaware-of ur priceless data-may crash’ day according to TOI so I’m ‘playing’ safe (ref. previous post for pun on playing;p) and finishing this TAG!! Specifying the gender: MALE

1. He must not be too egoistic..will clash with my my name suggests!
2. Should not be afraid to show compassion…to whoever it is- eg. Old lady crossing a street, a kid, a dog ..etc
3. Should not flush and flare nostrils if I say “You’re so gay!!”, therefore should be secure of his masculinity!
4. Laugh at my stupid jokes and make me laugh at his.
5. Be romantic:)..its never clichéd if its genuine and unique. Be sexy;)
6. Be independent and non-clingy! Should respect space and trust me like I would.
7. Share interests in doing things together yet have his own set of personal time-pass hobbies! His own identity
8. Be my best fren above all:)

i just realised i've been extremely clean so has everyone else..LOL;) why spoil it..ahahaha

oh..everyone reading this pls beware of the virus 'kamasutra' (i know...) that's supposed to hit on Feb 3rd (tomo.) and it infects ur beware and u know u've been attacked when everything 'freezes' and u have to 'reboot'!

Monday, January 30, 2006

What kind of a Kisser r U?

You're a Playful Kisser
Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and playYou're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a partyOr you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dareAnd you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!
What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Squirm had put this up on her post and I tried it too..heheh:p what about u?

Sunday, January 22, 2006


I was watching vh1 last night and on the fab 40 was bugatti at no.2! Yep the 2nd most expensive thing in the world for 2006.Its a beauty!

Bugatti is a superlative on wheels

At its top speed of 407 km/h, the $1.25 million Bugatti Veyron runs out of fuel in 12 minutes. Deliveries start this
month, and plans are to build no more than 300 of them.

Jan. 21, 2006. 01:00 AM

PALERMO, ITALY—At 320 km/h, the Bugatti Veyron 16.4 pounds a beautiful, howling hole in the sweltering haze hanging over the motorway.
This, the fastest production car in the world, is broad and low, an enamelled ellipse in a spiffy two-tone paint scheme. By comparison, its now-vanquished supercar rivals, such as the Ferrari Enzo and McLaren F1, are all edges and blades and angles, like F16 fighter planes or Japanese stunt kites.

A superlative on four wheels, the Bugatti Veyron is not only the world's fastest production car but also the most expensive: $1.25 million (U.S.) before taxes and richly deserved gas-guzzler penalties. Also, the most powerful: Its 8.0-litre, 16-cylinder, quad-turbo engine produces more than 1,000 horsepower and churns it through a high-tech all-wheel-drive system and foot-wide tires.
It's also the quickest: The Veyron accelerates to 96 km/h in 2.1 seconds, faster than a Formula 1 car, but then it's just getting started. In 20 seconds — about the time it takes a fast reader to get through this paragraph — it reaches 320 km/h. In 53 mind-blowing seconds, the Veyron reaches its marquee speed: 407 km/h.
At that speed, the tires would begin to soften in about half an hour. Fortunately, at top speed, it runs out of gas in only 12 minutes. "It's a safety feature,'' Wolfgang Schreiber, the Veyron's chief engineer, says with a smile.
The Veyron, which makes its way to the first customers this month, is many things: It's a mirror held to the automobile industry's near-past of irrational exuberance. It's a monument to the ego of Ferdinand Piech, former chairman of Volkswagen AG, which bought the Bugatti name in 1998. And it represents a defining moment in the history of the automobile, the likely pinnacle of production car cost and performance.
Six years and an estimated half-billion in the making, the car trades on one of the most famous names in motoring.

Dan Neil is the Pulitzer prize-winning automotive critic of the Los Angeles Times.

Friday, January 13, 2006


Reality bites.That is why we create pseudo-reality.
Sometimes we find solace in fiction and that itself becomes reality at that moment…for that instance…here becomes now…and that now belongs to you…in whichever form u like.
No one can take away your power to imagine, your power to feel or relive past glories. Its all in our capacity…so really..what is the truth?What is reality?

The trauma of being a victim of Schizophrenia wasnt the only message I received from the movie 15 Park Avenue that I saw on Wednesday. It got me thinking about reality.How people can become disillusioned.
My reality is no different from yours, hers or his…cause we all face the same situations at different points in our lives and find our escape routes into a place thats perfect, impeccable and untouchable. Pseudo-reality can become addictive and the movie kind of scared me because Im constantly imaging the what ifs.
According to the Oxford Dictionary – Schizophrenia: is a mental disorder marked by disconnection between thoughts, feelings, and actions.
Sounds familiar? Hahah…
The movie ends abruptly and I was a bit baffled…firstly its so sad and harsh to see someone disillusioned. You want to go and shake him/her and then probably shake yourself. I know its cliché to have happy endings but I wasnt prepared to settle for anything less after seeing the movie. But the ending was apt. The directors take was real/ unreal…whatever u please. The movie ends with the victim in her own world of imagination…and its so apt…cause thats her reality and you and I may not be in it..but we can understand it!

This whole issue of what is truth and what is real has been confronting me in diff forms. One was this movie and another was/ is the text Im reading for this sem. Its a play by Arthur Miller. “Death of a Salesman” is about a salesman who gets fired and somehow manages to make ends meet. But the salesman (Willy) constantly goes back to his past and relives it by conversing with imaginary people. He does it verbally and mumbles to himself…and ultimately commits suicide, because he considers himself as a failure.Ive left out a lot of details as those dont concern me (well they do for my paper..LOL). But my point is…he didnt accept his situation and kept reliving the past…he thought he was well-liked but no one attended his funeral.
Today in class my lecturer asked us – Would you accept that youre a fat middle-aged ugly lady or that youre attractive? hm…immediately I thought…Im fat and ugly...I mean thats what Id say if I do become like that…I mean who long as you can laugh,sing and dance!?? Life is too short for such petty things…but really will I able to accept my failures?

Heck Im accepting them today, why wont I 10 years from now? Maybe itll be hard, or harder…but I know I dont want to end up like willy nor do I want to be disillusioned.

Reality is here…in front of you…if you are in denial no one can save you except yourself.

Each moment felt like it was split in two. One regretting what was left behind and one excited about the future.
-Motorcyle Diaries

When I saw Motorcycle Diaries today, this line struck me. I may not have have quoted the exact words but thats the gist of it. Its true even I cling to the past. It comforts me…but theres a long way to go..and I just hope I dont escape reality too often.

I hope I escape it just enough to enjoy it! :)

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Playing the cards....

I can smile and I dont need a reason.
I can laugh and I dont have to
worry about treason.

Checking for imperfections wont leave me.
But I know thats part of me.
Loving and adoring,all in me.
Impulsive,annoying and considerate me.
Sweet and egoistic me.

It doesnt matter if u play the cards wrong.
It doesnt matter anymore nothing or no one
Until you are yourself.

Thursday, January 05, 2006


My friend Esme took this pic and I loved it!!:) Isnt it beautiful...they were on the shelf...I could've brightened it but wanted to leave 'natural'!

EVERYONE- HAPPY NEW YEAR!! HOPE U HAVE A GREAT 2006! I've been busy with my college fest.Its called Cul-ah! N we got real cool sweatshirts this time..heheh..bright!