Wednesday, July 22, 2009


It is so simple to create an idea out of the abstract.

They possess details like a butterfly’s wings.

Perfection matching layers of skin examined under a microscope.

Beauty like that of a flower with morning dew.

During the formation no other form or object disturbs us.

We breathe and feel our little creation.

So chaste and untouched.

Excitement fills us from our heart and radiates to the rest of ourself.

And then comes along a fact or a friend who says, “oh that? Its already been done…”

Emotions cease to understand each other. Do I smile or freeze?

And alone one wonders if the same idea would’ve been different had I tried it out.

Or would it be a copy of what exists.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Death. You may know when its coming. But you'll never be ready for it. Ever.

Friday, June 05, 2009

Our first battle

I killed him. No wait, he killed me first. I killed him again and again and again. He smashed me. We didn’t stop. Frustration. Excitement. Fatigue.
He asked if we could just talk, now that we’ve damaged each other enough. He asked if we could relax. I asked him, do you want to talk about our dreary lives? About the work we do and how much we detest our monotony? About our dreams and our ambitions, which we hope take shape someday?
Your right he said, and continued to destroy me.

I laughed. Are you losing to a girl? He didn’t reply, patted my hand lovingly for a second, his eyes darted around and swung a blow.

We did it for 2 hours.

I won. But it was not easy. I felt bruised all over. We even altered our troupes so no lucky color would be a factor. I chose white twice and so did he. We got up and walked out of the café. Exhausted and refreshed. Tired and liberated.

I dunno how, but we always manage to re-invent our dates. But I’m sure the next time we play chess, it won’t be the same. The same hunger, sweat, blood and sweet intensity will always be reserved for the first time.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Travel discoveries

Have you had questions in your head that went unanswered and eventually forgotten?

Its funny how this works, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one, but traveling, enlightens those unsolved mysteries.

I love traveling, not only because I want to de-stress and relax. But more importantly its because I love learning new things - new streets, new train stations, new airports, new culture, new names, new faces, new histories....the list is endless!

And in all this discovery, everytime, this surprises me, but everytime I come home a new person. I come home with a wiser approach to life, to people, to situations.
Its splendid and raw because its so simple, when I sense those layers dispersing like butterflies off my chest.

And when I look back at what bothered me, I find myself grinning and thinking it was so silly!

There are so many issues we have in our mind, so many judgements and queries that are burried and forgotten, but still impact our personality.
Its just wonderful that so many things I didnt know bother me, wash away everytime I travel!

I hope I keep rediscovering myself everytime! :)

I just wish I had more money so I could keep traveling! :P

Thursday, March 05, 2009

25 things your forced to think 'randomly'

Tagged by Equi goes the 25 things about me that I thought of now at work...

1. I hate cowards. Hate safe people and those who don’t have the guts to take a stand on anything.
2. I love babies, kids. Love their innocent happiness and simple thinking.
3. God every point begins with an I. Tragic. I’m creatively stunted. Let me try
4. Smell of wet mud after the rains. I like. (lol, I did it!)
5. I’m lazy when there is no work and super energetic and a workaholic when there is tons of work. I don’t know how to be in between.
6. I used to be very emotional, especially about relationships. I’m turning into a stronger person now. Learning to be a bitch.
7. Psychology comes naturally to me.I don’t need a text book. I understand behaviours and mechanisms people use without trying. This helps me forgive too. Damn.
8. I believe timing is everything.
9. I keep playing with my hair, and my mom whacks me for it.
10. I miss my sister, whose always busy with her studies etc… waiting to enjoy the months lost.
11. I love intelligence. It’s a turn on.
12. My daddy strongest. He is a saviour to all my crises. Midnight car break downs etc.
13. I believe in supporting special occasions of family & close friends.
14. I miss my granddad. But since he’s left us, I’ve cried so much. I don’t know what to feel anymore. But thinking of him a lot, tugs that patched up hole in my heart, and so I’ve stopped thinking or discussing him even when someone else tries.
15. I still want to make him proud.
16. Im tired of power plays at work
17. I love it when my hair smells good after a nice long shampoo bath.
18. I love it when my bf smells my hair, whether or not its washed. It somehow smells good to him all the time!
19. I’m reading the 3 mistakes of my life. And I like it. I even asked Ma to get khakra. Missed it.
20. I admire my mother’s strength.
21. I hate it when I get insecure about anything. I wait to bounce back.
22. I love bike rides. Love fast cars.
23. I sometimes wish I was a guy. Even dreamt of it.
24. Grandma’s cooking, her passion and her energy at her present age, wows me.
25. Ok last one…. Um….. I want to see the Curious case of Benjamin Button.

This Tag is for everyone! :) whoever wants to do it!

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

face value

Its amazing how we learn to adapt to situations in life. But sometimes some repetitive situations still never fail to amaze us and freeze us.

Off late, I've learnt I need to look at things at face value. Not too deep, not too far. Just the right distance from your face.

That's the best way to deal with all kinds of people.... face value... till your sure you can take it further. Or else its still safe, from where you stand.

And the best part! I can now have fun without expecting or giving! :)

Saturday, February 07, 2009

I understand your pissed. But I had every right to that drink.

I understand your pissed. But I had every right to that drink.

Thankyou for being who you are, for I know not where I whither.
I need your firmness. However, this time I will not let myself go on the 'guilt-trip'.
For even though I can't lie to you, I can never admit how much I needed it.

Everyday there is plenty around me,including the smokes. All kinds.

After losing out on weekends, nights and days of frustration because of my pain-in-the-ass job, and resistance due to your keen sense of smell and observations, I decided I would be okay with a breezer and some polo.I even added coffee.

Alas, I failed the involuntary test.
And again we dissapointed each other.

For you - I'm too young.
For me - Your ever growing denial, that I'm still young.

Forgive them for they know not the evils that lurk around their child. They know not the value of my paltry 'sins' when measured against the torrents of the other children.